I drew some stuff...

I can't decide which direction this was meant to go, they both seem so right...

Portishead - S.O.S.

One of my favorite bands of all time... Portishead... reduxing ABBA...

in a hauntingly beautiful way...

Peia Que mi medicina

This woman's voice... oh my goodness... love...

The Poet Kneads the Pain...

inconsolably I weep 

for the death of 

the wonder twins....

 for the fading rainbo.... 

even through all the shit and the pain, 

the whole world would right itself when we made peace again... 

war is a part of life... 

and our world, with war is rife... 

when we were doing good, however briefly, 

the whole universe was in order... 

a chaotic order... 

and then sometimes, a monsoon.... 

but calm again came... 

and softer was the rain... 

and it was always you... 

always you... 

and me... 

and now that journey is through... 

and I cry... 

oh how I cry... 

the tears of a thousand lives lived together.... 

a thousand deaths died alone... 

a thousand chances to atone... 

maybe the in next one we'll do better... 

--MX

NOT GOODBYE... BON VOYAGE...

and yet... now.. in this moment.. 

i find myself missing you... will it ever stop??

will i ever get to the point that you are at? 

at being so certain this is what we should be doing? 

at being so certain we should no longer be?

i miss our love 

I miss it so much...

I don't miss the hate

or the lies 

or the secrets

or the pain... 

but I miss... 

you and me... 

every song i hear reminds me of  you

every book on every shelf in this room...

every moment of every day... 

I miss... 

...you... 

i will always love you... 

even if it was never meant for forever... 

I don't want another ... 

I have always just wanted YOU...

 the best version of you...

 to love me always... and to treasure me... 

because you are the only one who ever did... 

and then... 

well,

 we both lost sight of the gift we had in the both of us...

--MX

THRONE OF THORNS

The union of opposites

Suffering the same affliction

Struggling with the same addiction

To each other...

Why can't harmony come to stay?

Do we really keep it at bay?

Can the past really ever stay that way?

My selfishness is my shackle

My crown of thorns is self-sacrifice

I have love and yet cannot see it

Nor the forest for the trees

I love him and he loves me

I hurt him and he hurts me

He hurts him and I hurt me

What is the lesson of this life?

Can there be freedom from the strife?

Will we ever find the treasures we seek?

Only to realize one day

When the love has disappeared

That it was simply here all this time?

--MX

FLOOD

The rain outside, 

She pours, she pounds

As if the Earth Herself

Wept with me...

The crashing thunder echoes 

The beats of my breaking heart

The street has turned to river

Washing away the muck and mire

I wish it would wash away my desire

My yearning for what once was

For what could still be...

For the way we held hands

For the laughter and the Rapture

For the warm Lover's embrace

For the ecstasy that came...when WE did...

For the love that has been all but lost... 

For the memory of joy and pain...

For these the Earth weeps with me

So that she may wash away my pain

All that is lost, all that is missing

.... my Rainbo...

--MX